Present over perfect

Good evening folks, I know, I really really need to be more consistent on here, if I wanna have any kind of success. I had an email in my inbox today, that touched briefly on the Bible study I just started at my church Weds night. As my title tonight states, present over perfect, it’s learning to be who you are in the midst of everyday life. I haven’t jumped back into my daily assignment yet, but I will post here as soon as I do.

See, I have an issue with becoming who God created me to be, outside of doing, reading, wanting to much. That mentality of”as soon as I have_______, I’ll be happy,” or,”as soon as my weight gets to_____, I’ll feel better,” God didn’t create us to have that mentality, and even though that mentality is predominant to us females, guys have it also, you just don’t hear about it as often. 

Speaking of weight, I’ve been battling mine a bit lately, trying to get it down to a lower number. I’m not going to share my weight, however, I will say that, it’s the highest I’ve ever been in my life. My mother in law went, starting the 15th, Monday, on a 2 week trip to care for someone else and while she’s gone, I’ve been dog sitting. He is a 14yr old Chi-Raq, Chihuahua/Yorkie, and for 14, he’s still pretty rambunctious and energetic.

Here is Pilgrim. I’ve been taking advantage of having him, to hopefully get myself off my butt more and at least walking more, if nothing else. 

I’m going to end here for now, with I look forward to sharing more with you. Have a great night, tomorrow will be a busy day for my crew, two soccer games in the morning, grocery shopping afterwards, and then picking up my hubby from work sometime tomorrow.

Absence

Good afternoon folks. I’m sorry I haven’t been around lately, I’ve been dealing with health issues and, unfortunately now, financial hardship. I’m not sure how many might be going through health issues like I’ll describe shortly, but I’m praying for all of us to have an uneventful Merry Christmas.

 

I have dealt with chronic intestinal issues for quite awhile now. At one point, Dr’s thought it was my gallbladder, six tests and a surgeon’s consult later, it wasn’t. Thankfully, in a way. Then I went to a gastro Dr, who I thought was trying to help me, but I found was just trying to pad both his and the pharmaceutical companies’pockets. After seeing another gastro Dr, I’m liking much better, he’s prescribed meds to calm down my system before looking further to find the actual problem and cause. Which I’m grateful for.

As of this date, nobody is any closer to figuring out what’s going on.┬á However, on a lighter note, I’ve been getting back into my favorite first love, reading. And of course, crocheting. I’ve gotten a few projects that I’ve started, gotten bored with, set down to start doing something else, gone back to, and some I’ve finished, some of which, I’ve just recently been picking back up. I found some really cool stitch patterns for scarves or blankets that I’ve been experimenting on, I’ll try and share the links and some pics later on.

My youngest kids have officially started spring soccer, they’ve had practices, and my daughter’s first game, they won, 5-2, WOOOO HOOOO!!!!! My son’s first game w/be this Saturday, he’s got a good coach, so we’ll see.

 

Well needed night with the hubby

OK, so it’s been a bit, but lotta stuff has gone on. I’ve dealt with people through our bank for two weeks, gotten some other stuff taken care of thru the bank, so that’s a good thing. Hubby’s work schedule was off this week, which threw me off, but he’s now home and things are, hopefully back to normal.

I stayed home from church on weds, wasn’t feeling great, kids went, thank God for friends. Health issues aren’t any closer to being figured out. I had a Dr appt with my gastroenterologist last Friday, 1-13-17,I explained to him that the meds he had put me on almost a year ago were helping, until I couldn’t afford them anymore and quit taking them. Lots of other things have been diminished out of my diet, and if he was still waiting on things in my guts to”calm down”, he was gonna be waiting till I ended up on the hospital, not something I’m waiting for, but possibly on the horizon. So, he took my suggestion and got the process going of scheduling me for an EUS, or endoscopic ultrasound, to see in the guts more than just what a regular ultrasound or cat scan would. It’s now a week later, the Dr doing the test still hasn’t called to schedule me for it. My wonderful rib and belly pain really flared up yesterday, somewhat did today, but I curbed them with pain pills and muscle relaxers. I hate being addicted to those stupid things.

I’ve been on pain pills and muscle relaxers for just shy of nine years due to an auto accident that, didn’t “cause any damages outside of a concussion and whiplash”, but yet, nine years later, I’m still having major issues and starting to lose weight, I’m feeling pain in my neck and back more so than even 8mos ago. 

Tonight, hubby is home, we are kid free, and so gonna hang with the hubby and have married people time. Everybody have a great night, safe travels, later.

About me, part 2

Good evening, I’m back. To continue my about me, in my first about me post,I touched on my health issues and some other issues I’ve been dealing with lately. As far as our banking dilemmas, I think we’re on track now, on the gut/digestive dilemmas, I saw my Gastro Dr yesterday, initially, my blood pressure was taken and told to me:150/100. Now, if I was pregnant and had toxemia in pregnancy like I did many years ago, that would be understandable, however, I had walked earlier that morning after dropping off my children to school, went home to have a small breakfast and clean up and I thought, I was fairly relaxed, outside of the fact that while getting my family ready for the day before dropping everybody off Friday morning, I had bashed my head pretty good on my freezer door and so I was hurting pretty bad. They never did retake my blood pressure, we all forgot to mention it. This morning, my daughter woke me up close to noon, wondering if I was gonna sleep all day. So today, I just hung out with the kiddos and read and binge watched different shows. Hopefully tomorrow, I’m a little better than I was today. 

I did my switchell and juice cleanse around noon, after getting up for the day, had a grilled cheese for brunch and a v8,a handful of nuts for snack when I wanted to munch, and a small dinner. I had popcorn for a snack tonight with my shows and, mental note to self, I won’t be having popcorn again. It has requested the fast track out. I’m hoping that they schedule my endoscopic ultrasound soon, so we can know what’s going on with my insides and hopefully a way to fix it and maybe regain part of my diet that I’ve lost so far. 

In the near future you’ll start seeing some of my writings, some of my craft endeavors and foods and recipes that I’ve tried and their failures and successes, and of course books and magazines that I’ve read and gained knowledge from. I’m gonna admit something to you all, I’m an information junkie. I love to know and learn stuff. Being I love to learn and know stuff,I also love to help others with my knowledge and help others by finding out stuff that others can’t, don’t want to bother with our aren’t sure how to go about finding.

I’m looking to become a freelance writer, a virtual assistant/personal assistant, proofreader, editor from home, while still being available for my family. If anybody can help me out, even if I’m hired to do jobs for free on a trial basis to gain me some experience/practice, I’m OK with that. I can be contacted here or by email at haskids2009@gmail.com. Have a great night everybody and prayers and blessings to all.

About me, part one

Good evening, I have returned. I haven’t gone far, but just haven’t posted in awhile. For a long time, I’ve contemplated what to do with this blog, I love to write, my passion is reading and writing, and of course helping people. So, I’ve decided, after in depth conversations with God, that I use what I have, and write what I know. 

For anybody who hasn’t read my blog before or read any of my posts, I’m a happily married wife of a truck driver, I’m a homemaker, momma to four beautiful children, home administrator and personal assistant. I have had a rough upbringing, and a rough young adulthood, my adulthood hasn’t been as rough, although it’s been how I’ve reacted to it and who I’ve had by my side to help me get through it. In the past three years or so, I’ve been having some pretty extensive gut and digestive issues, that, I’m still working on getting figured out and hopefully controlled. My issues started out with symptoms that mimicked gall bladder issues. That led to me calling my Dr., who did some testing, sent me off to a gastroenterologist, who, alongside a colleague, did some tests, to find out, I’ve got a fatty liver and chronic pancreatitis, IBS(irritable bowel syndrome),GERD,(Gastro esophageal reflux disease), but absolutely nothing wrong with my gall bladder. By that time, I was having my consult with a surgeon, who said, I had a 50/50 shot of having surgery and it helping or not. 

Back to the drawing board we went. I dealt with alot more pain, less and less in my diet on which I can eat and tolerate, a 50/50 shot of whether I’m gonna have to be close to a bathroom or not each time I eat. I’ve started a juice cleanse ritual each morning, a slightly different lunch and dinner routine, and still, haven’t gotten any closer to figuring out what’s wrong. I was in an auto accident almost nine years ago, which caused extensive neck and back issues. My neck issues, even a year and a half post surgery, haven’t done anything. I haven’t been brave enough to get my back issues on the track to getting figured out yet, because, I still have yet to go see the post concussion center for a concussion I endured on my own last may, while on the road with my trucker hubby. He thought he was gonna have to catch me from falling out of the truck, after whacking myself hard enough on the door jam of the truck to almost knock myself out. I’ve since bashed my head a number of times, including today. Now, for anyone who’s given themselves a concussion whether to knock themselves out enough or not knows, that once you’ve bashed your head, it’s worse each and every time afterwards. I bashed my head this morning on the corner of my freezer door, and I almost knocked myself out. I, moments later, started feeling pain radiating from my forehead down the sides of my head to my neck and shoulders. It affected my vision also. 

It apparently, affected my blood pressure also. My blood pressure is usually normal at 120/80, or close to it. Today, at my Gastro appt, it was 150/100, quite a bit higher, one, because I was fighting another concussion. I’m not a big fan of Drs, or lawyers, or any other high authority figures. I’ve been dealing with our bank in regards to our mortgage, and to have patience with people who, seems like all they seem like they’re doing is trying to piss you off, takes the sheer grace of God and his mercy.

A trucker’s wife’s life

It’s 10:30p.m. On a Wednesday night. We had church tonight, however, I didn’t want to brave the extreme cold, blowing snow and 14┬░weather and somewhat slippery roads. I don’t do well driving in the snow, my last accident, almost nine years ago, was the last snowfall of March 2008. It was my son’s 4th birthday, and I wasn’t driving, however, I suffered some extensive neck and back injuries, that nobody can find or figure out. Because of those, I depend on pain pills and muscle relaxers, and my health has, in different ways, gone downhill.

I now deal with major gut issues, feminine and bladder issues, on top of my neck and back issues. I guess, if I were to look at it this way, that these neck and back issues have opened the doors for my other issues to be seen and slowly dealt with, that this is God’s plan for my life, and to not complain about them, I’d probably be better off. Because of all these issues though, God has blessed me with being a stay at home mom and wife, to be here with/for my kids and my husband, that I’m not meant to be a working mom. It sucks financially, because my hard working trucker hubby is our only income, but, he’s otherwise happy and content with me being at home rather than working. I’m available for him and his needed wake up calls, business dealings, the kids and everything that requires attention of one parent or another. I’ve been fighting God on this for quite awhile, in turn, I’ve probably been the disobedient child who doesn’t reap God’s rewards and blessings because I’ve been disobedient.

So, I’m trying to start being more obedient to God and relying fully on him for everything, including my finances. In the meantime however, I am going to start utilizing my loves, which, outside of my family, is reading and writing. I love to write and I want to start writing for profit. If anybody is willing to take a chance on a newbie writer for resumes, blog posts, articles, websites, I’d be willing to gain experience and do it for free for awhile. I’ve seen alot of sites and blogs that haven’t been kept up in awhile and I’d be willing to help bring them back to life.

OK, enough about me, for everybody who’s still gotta be on the roads here in Michigan, prayers and blessings to safe travels and have a great night folks.

 

It’s Saturday

Good morning everybody. This is what the view is in my neck of the woods, good ole west Michigan today. I don’t know about anybody else, but this chick won’t be going out today unless I absolutely have to. I don’t know what everybody else has going on today, but, like i stated last week, my hubby was on vacation this week, going back to work tomorrow and I will be doing more reading and writing this week.

Today in downtown Grand Rapids, there is the Santa parade, which you can catch on wood TV, or woodtv.com, out their mobile app. Or, if you’re feeling brave, you can go out and watch it. Me, I’m going to attempt to finish up a few things for some hopefully, potential work from home positions, get some stuff done around the house and later, play store with the hubby. 

Have a great day folks and stay safe for the ones braving the areas effected by snowfall.